Sunday, May 1, 2011

An audience

This running thing has been good on many levels, but it's also hard, uncomfortable and time-consuming. I have a few things that keep me going, but possibly the biggest motivator that I hold in my mind when I'm tired and have to drag myself out the door is that my children are watching and learning from my life. When Natalie was born, one of the many powerful realizations I had was that I wanted to be a better person for her sake

So I persevere  - against my every inclination - because I want her to see me working through things that are frustrating, unpleasant and difficult in order to reach a goal. I also try to zip my lips when tempted to whine - after all, I don't like her to whine, so I better keep to the standard I set for her.

Even though she doesn't understand why I want to run a marathon (and she really doesn't), I know that I'm modeling what it takes to work hard for a goal. I hope she gets it. I do know she gets that it's good for me.

And I can't wait to cross the finish line and see my kids and Murray cheering for me. Ultimately, they're It - both my reason and my strength. 

3 comments:

  1. You have an audience here Jen! At least in reading your blog posts. Good on ya for keeping to the training. Wish I could see you in Anch for the marathon!

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  2. You are an inspiration to more than your kids!
    Is it the Mayors Marathon in Anchorage that you are training to run? If so, I plan to be there cheering for you and my little sister!

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  3. Aaah, you guys are the best. Yes, Kris, it's the Mayor's I'm going to run - Sue is so inspiring to me. I'm so excited you're going to be up there! Our AK trips have been mis-timed for so many years now it's shocking to finally have it work!

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